Praise God I am in Costa Rica and God is doing great things! I will say more soon; first are some reflections of the heart.
It has been a long time since I have written. Being honest I wanted to and even began a few times but came short of what to say. As we all ought to be, I am in process of maturing in my relationship with God and I don’t always like how that process feels; though at times the feeling is unpleasant, the process and no doubt God is good. I have always spoken from the heart so when my heart does not know what to say I tend to be silent for a time… here’s to maturing in Christ and learning to share the unpleasant part of process which leads to eternal riches and true beauty!
These things I would like to share as I believe many of you have, are or will be here in some way as you walk with God. May you be encouraged and journey deeper into the living heart of God!
[Rom 5:3-5 NKJV] And not only [that], but we also glory in tribulations, knowing that tribulation produces perseverance; and perseverance, character; and character, hope. Now hope does not disappoint, because the love of God has been poured out in our hearts by the Holy Spirit who was given to us.
As I recently read this passage I realized it allowed me to express and understand one of my struggles… I have been afraid I will not be able to persevere on to character or as NASB says, “proven character.” Of course God is able to do anything in me but I was asking, “Will I really be strong enough?” Serving in Costa Rica has required more of me than I am. One day I would say, “Thank you, Jesus, as you are using me for great things; I am humbled.” Another day I would say, “O, God, help! I am overwhelmed!”
I have actually been afraid of being good enough for God, to be entrusted with His plan for me and so also afraid of committing my full self, of persevering!
[2Co 5:17 NKJV] Therefore, if anyone [is] in Christ, [he is] a new creation; old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new.
[Eph 2:6 NKJV] and raised [us] up together, and made [us] sit together in the heavenly [places] in Christ Jesus,
The truth is my old ways that I am afraid of, the lies the enemy designed to cause me to separate myself from God are dead. We are new persons in Christ, just as Jesus when on earth as our example, we are perfect as to His nature in us yet we are in the process of maturing. God is teaching us how to live from the perspective of the Father’s heart, as seated with Christ in heavenly places, in the world but not of it.
I leave you with this:
[Gal 6:8-9 NKJV] For he who sows to his flesh will of the flesh reap corruption, but he who sows to the Spirit will of the Spirit reap everlasting life. And let us not grow weary while doing good, for in due season we shall reap if we do not lose heart.